srsly

What I'm about to say is the truth.
My dad just kept saying to me earlier that I am stupid and incapable of doing things because I'm lazy; that once I speak, people will know that I don't know anything.
He says he knows me best because I'm his child.
Does he really?
I'm always cooped up in my room, at church, or at school; I never speak my mind to him unless he provokes me to and usually, when that happens, I'm not thinking straight.
I'm still surprised that I'm capable of differentiating between God and my dad and I'm glad I can do that.
"at least you have a lot of passion to the things you're interested in and not wasting it on drugs and sex" - toki
that's so true.
My mom, who agrees with me & wants me to do what I wanna do in life so I can be happy doing it without complaining, even backstabbed me in front of my dad. Out of all people in the world, I never expected my mom to do that to me. That's the part that hurt the most. My dad thinks that I don't love them because I don't do anything for them. I do love them, they just make it hard for me to show it.
I see them utterly different now than ever before.

You know what? I need prayers.

- Jasmine

p.s. In God, I will succeed in what I like to do, but then again, in God, I can complete my studies as a dental hygienist major.

pp.s the next time someone asks me what my major is, I'm going to say this, "my major is dental hygiene. so basically once i graduate, i'll get tons of money, be miserable because i'm looking at teeth 12 - 14 hours a day, and at the end when i go home, i'd wanna kill myself because i'm so damn miserable, but i can't cause its a sin to kill yourself and i wouldn't want my family to go to jail for what i did and then it'll start all over again the next day" -- I'm serious. I will say that.