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1110.
It taught me so much. *Just remember what I shared yesterday* Sarah & Alice had to go back early so Tiffa, Monay, and I had to go too. A part of me was disappointed to not find out what really happened that night and another part of me was glad I was somewhat apart of it. Johnny called Sarah and asked her to pray for him and the others because they had encountered someone that was posessed by a demonic force. We each took turns in the car to pray outloud for them. A bit after we did that, I saw this really clear image right in front of me. It was an image of the UCLA Supernatural room and everyone was worshipping and praying. I saw Johnny, praying for that person and suddenly a white light kind of thing flew right at Johnny and into his forehead. I asked God what that meant, but Monay answered me. "Johnny and them must have gotten our prayers." (:

*personal reflection of the day: A part of the day, in the morning/noon ish, I was kind of mad. It was those feelings where you feel like your friends just don't respect you, that they feel like they can say anything without it hurting your feelings, and also, a feeling that you just hate how they act sometimes, but you don't want to tell them because they might take it the wrong way and then get mad at you. You see, I'm one of those people who can't say right away that "oh hey look, you're really hurting my feelings right now. Please.. don't do that again" whereas Monay can do it without a problem. But anyway, I just felt really uninviting. It's a shameful feeling when it gets to a point where you have to lie to your friend when she or he asks you, "hey are you ok? you look mad." Because, I had to lie and say that I was alright and that I wasn't mad. Later on, temporarily, I forgot about it, but .....

1111.
Share a bit. Said that I might share more on Sunday. Wakaranai. Johnny had his baptizism & Annie held a surprise birthday cake for Alice. I missed it both because of my dad's stupid post-office party. Hm... even though Monay was there, I felt uneasy. Why was that? But... while we were going home, we had to take my two guy cousins because their parents were going to stay and dance along with their sister. We had fun in the car so I was a bit happy. It made up for all the years of being so uneasy with each other because of competition. My car windows were filled with weird looking pictures. ^_^

*personal feelings of the day: I... felt as if I am still having this one trouble in my life. But this time, I don't feel like it's a burden to me. It's weird. I'm attached to his company (meaning prescence) and yet I am not so attached to him. No. I'm not talking about God. I'm talking about someone else. Somewhere in my heart, I have this feeling that maybe one day, something incredible and good will happen from this crush. Wakaranai. And I have yet to say that I "love" this person even though it's urging to come out. *sigh...