Let's Contemplate & Rant, Shall We?

Last night, I came home from cell group in a very horrendous mood. Obviously, if you know me and my family very well, it'd be because of my dad. I finally told him that I'm already 18 years old and I should be able to stay out at least until 10pm or something. Guess what he said. "Being 18 does not matter. It doesn't mean you're smarter and more mature than before." What he said, I do admit it's somewhat true. When I turned 18, my brain knew, "hey I'm an adult now," but I didn't feel any different. There is some truth in what he said, but how would he know if I'm more smarter and maturer than before if he doesn't give me the chance to express it? Am I right? At least give me the chance to show that I can be a smarter and more mature person than I was when I was 17 years old. Right?

When I got in the house and my mom said hi, I was thinking about ignoring her, but I thought, "She didn't do anything wrong" so I said hi in a very monotoned way. I guess she knew what happened in someways because it happened nearly so many times a week that it's a routine for my dad and I. I tried to calm myself down with some music on my laptop, but it obviously didn't work because I'm sort of mad still.

So.. this morning, since now I know the cycle of sleep, I had a dream. It seemed somewhat similar to my family in some ways except the obvious. I was the daughter, excuse me, adoptive daughter of an unknown president, maybe in the future or whatever. I had four other siblings and to my surprise it was Jennifer, Howard, Stacey, and Alice. They were the president's real children. I was the oldest of them all since I'm 18 already, Alice is 17, Jennifer is 17, Howard is 16, and Stacey is 15. (Alice will soon be 18, YAY). So it starts out with basically randomness. Everyone in the white house, ever since they found out that I was adopted, was being cruel to me. And when I say everyone, I even mean the president himself and his wife. The only people in there that was nice to me were the siblings. I'm not gonna go through all the details, but in the end, I decided to study abroad whether or not my dad was going to let me or not. My siblings had my back and got grounded for letting me go.

This dream basically made me cry.
- Jasmine