What I'm about to say is the truth.
My dad just kept saying to me earlier that I am stupid and incapable of doing things because I'm lazy; that once I speak, people will know that I don't know anything.
He says he knows me best because I'm his child.
Does he really?
I'm always cooped up in my room, at church, or at school; I never speak my mind to him unless he provokes me to and usually, when that happens, I'm not thinking straight.
I'm still surprised that I'm capable of differentiating between God and my dad and I'm glad I can do that.
"at least you have a lot of passion to the things you're interested in and not wasting it on drugs and sex" - toki
that's so true.
My mom, who agrees with me & wants me to do what I wanna do in life so I can be happy doing it without complaining, even backstabbed me in front of my dad. Out of all people in the world, I never expected my mom to do that to me. That's the part that hurt the most. My dad thinks that I don't love them because I don't do anything for them. I do love them, they just make it hard for me to show it.
I see them utterly different now than ever before.
You know what? I need prayers.
- Jasmine
p.s. In God, I will succeed in what I like to do, but then again, in God, I can complete my studies as a dental hygienist major.
pp.s the next time someone asks me what my major is, I'm going to say this, "my major is dental hygiene. so basically once i graduate, i'll get tons of money, be miserable because i'm looking at teeth 12 - 14 hours a day, and at the end when i go home, i'd wanna kill myself because i'm so damn miserable, but i can't cause its a sin to kill yourself and i wouldn't want my family to go to jail for what i did and then it'll start all over again the next day" -- I'm serious. I will say that.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
20 yrs
Last night, a couple of us (Aaron, Johnny, Joy, Sarah, Alice, Sammy, and I) went to the Pre-Call rally at the Angelus Temple Hispanic Church in downtown LA. Boy, was it worth ditching for! Lou Engle was there & so was Eduardo who played Jose in the awesomely touching movie "BELLA." For those of you who haven't seen Bella, do so immediately. This isn't a request, this is a command. xP
Anyways, Lou was talking about Joel 2 and Matthew 17.
Lou has been waiting 20 years for something like the Pre-Call rally last night; where Hispanics unite with the rest of us in fast and pray for this nation, for abortion and many other issues that are going on today that violates what God has promised us. This morning, as I remembered to re-read Matthew 17, I noticed that Matthew 19 was about divorce and that was one of the topics that Lou was talking about last night at the rally. This is what Matthew 19:4-6 says, "Haven't you read," he replied, "that at the beginning the Creator made them male and female," and said, "For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh? So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate." Proof.
As for Joel 2, I don't remember quite exactly if Lou had a specific verse, but I just looked through it again and I highlighted a couple verses that stood out to me and what I remember from last night. I'm actually surprised that I could remember anything since once I got home I slept right away. Ha. Anyway Joel 2:
verses 1-5 (too long, but you can take a look at it for yourself in your own Bible or go to www.biblegateway.com
verse 12 "Even now," declares the Lord, "return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning."
verses 15-17
verse 20 "I will drive you the northern army far from you..."
verses 28-30 "And afterward, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy..." (www.biblegateway.com)
verse 32 "And everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved; for on Mount Zion..." (www.biblegateway.com)
promises. all have been kept.
then as Joy was driving Sammy, Aaron, and I back, I think it was the area a little bit before the gas station, I saw this billboard. Lou was saying how he's been waiting 20 years for Hispanics to unite, also talking about Mexico. On the billboard I saw "20 years in Mexico" or something like that. I was like, "Oh my God." Crazy.
Oh & yesterday morning, before I headed off to school, I was waiting for my dad to finish taking a shower so he could drive me to school. Parking is a pain. I was having my prayer time on my bed (it actually looked like I was sleeping with my hands in the air, haha) and I was just praying in English and in tongues and I was just so peaceful after a few minutes and then I started smelling this really nice fragrance and I said, "God, if that was You, let it be stronger." So I waited a few seconds and sniffed. (yes, sniffed) Suddenly, I could smell it even stronger than before. But it was only a little bit stronger. Soon, I realized that I was going to be late to class so I just said, "Thank You Jesus. Hallelujah. Amen and Amen."
- Jasypants
Anyways, Lou was talking about Joel 2 and Matthew 17.
Lou has been waiting 20 years for something like the Pre-Call rally last night; where Hispanics unite with the rest of us in fast and pray for this nation, for abortion and many other issues that are going on today that violates what God has promised us. This morning, as I remembered to re-read Matthew 17, I noticed that Matthew 19 was about divorce and that was one of the topics that Lou was talking about last night at the rally. This is what Matthew 19:4-6 says, "Haven't you read," he replied, "that at the beginning the Creator made them male and female," and said, "For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh? So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate." Proof.
As for Joel 2, I don't remember quite exactly if Lou had a specific verse, but I just looked through it again and I highlighted a couple verses that stood out to me and what I remember from last night. I'm actually surprised that I could remember anything since once I got home I slept right away. Ha. Anyway Joel 2:
verses 1-5 (too long, but you can take a look at it for yourself in your own Bible or go to www.biblegateway.com
verse 12 "Even now," declares the Lord, "return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning."
verses 15-17
verse 20 "I will drive you the northern army far from you..."
verses 28-30 "And afterward, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy..." (www.biblegateway.com)
verse 32 "And everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved; for on Mount Zion..." (www.biblegateway.com)
promises. all have been kept.
then as Joy was driving Sammy, Aaron, and I back, I think it was the area a little bit before the gas station, I saw this billboard. Lou was saying how he's been waiting 20 years for Hispanics to unite, also talking about Mexico. On the billboard I saw "20 years in Mexico" or something like that. I was like, "Oh my God." Crazy.
Oh & yesterday morning, before I headed off to school, I was waiting for my dad to finish taking a shower so he could drive me to school. Parking is a pain. I was having my prayer time on my bed (it actually looked like I was sleeping with my hands in the air, haha) and I was just praying in English and in tongues and I was just so peaceful after a few minutes and then I started smelling this really nice fragrance and I said, "God, if that was You, let it be stronger." So I waited a few seconds and sniffed. (yes, sniffed) Suddenly, I could smell it even stronger than before. But it was only a little bit stronger. Soon, I realized that I was going to be late to class so I just said, "Thank You Jesus. Hallelujah. Amen and Amen."
- Jasypants
Sunday, September 14, 2008
what happens in K-mart...
So on saturday, there was only Kay, Alice, and I who attended our usual cell group meeting. This time, it was at my place, but since Alice was really hungry and I didn't have anymore bread, we decided to have city invasion while we go around Albertsons to buy bread. We prayed for a lot of people, randomly too.
When we got to CVS, we were excited because of when Joy, Pastor John, Katherine, and I went last week for CALL OF DUTY CITY INVASION. So we were walking around the Pharmacy area and atlas Alice saw someone who she wanted to pray for; Marsha. Then it was Kay and me left and a woman walked by me who was speaking in vietnamese and Kay asked me if I understood. I said yes, but I was really scared cause my vietnamese was absolutely unstable. However, I went up to her anyway. Her name was Karen and I was just about to pray for her when she got called over to the pharmacists. He was asking her what was going on and she didn't know. Then he asked Kay and me and I told him that we were just asking her if she wants any prayers. Then he told us to come to where he was so we could talk. He was telling me about the code/rule that they have at CVS. He used a word but I forgot what it was. (sorry) Alice soon came over and was listening too. After he told us we said we were sorry and left.
Then.. we headed towards Albertsons to get some bread. I believe that Kay prayed for someone, but I don't remember. So after that, we went to K-mart. We were walking around at first. Then Alice prayed for this hispanic couple, but I don't know what happened there cause I was off praying for her. Then Alice asked me about this name I got when we were praying for this other person in Office Depot named John. The name I got was Sylvia. (Dangit. Should have asked him if his gf's name was Sylvia) So we started calling out Sylvia's name outloud randomly; not to anyone specific. Suddenly, someone magically answered.
"Sylvia!" - all three of us
"I'm right here!" - a girl
(we turn to each other o_O!)
"Let's go" - Kay
(Alice and I start walking over to where the girl was; hesitated a little cause the girl's boyfriend came over)
"Go ask her" - Kay
(Alice walks over to them)
"I'm sorry but this might sound random, but is your name Sylvia?" - Alice
"No my name isn't Sylvia" - the girl
It was crazy! Her boyfriend called her around the same time we called out "Sylvia." How funny.
God is a humorous God, Amen. That's right.
p.s. I'm trying to not say that anything is a coincidence cause it's not.
pp.s. Look on Alice's blog for more information on this.
jasy
When we got to CVS, we were excited because of when Joy, Pastor John, Katherine, and I went last week for CALL OF DUTY CITY INVASION. So we were walking around the Pharmacy area and atlas Alice saw someone who she wanted to pray for; Marsha. Then it was Kay and me left and a woman walked by me who was speaking in vietnamese and Kay asked me if I understood. I said yes, but I was really scared cause my vietnamese was absolutely unstable. However, I went up to her anyway. Her name was Karen and I was just about to pray for her when she got called over to the pharmacists. He was asking her what was going on and she didn't know. Then he asked Kay and me and I told him that we were just asking her if she wants any prayers. Then he told us to come to where he was so we could talk. He was telling me about the code/rule that they have at CVS. He used a word but I forgot what it was. (sorry) Alice soon came over and was listening too. After he told us we said we were sorry and left.
Then.. we headed towards Albertsons to get some bread. I believe that Kay prayed for someone, but I don't remember. So after that, we went to K-mart. We were walking around at first. Then Alice prayed for this hispanic couple, but I don't know what happened there cause I was off praying for her. Then Alice asked me about this name I got when we were praying for this other person in Office Depot named John. The name I got was Sylvia. (Dangit. Should have asked him if his gf's name was Sylvia) So we started calling out Sylvia's name outloud randomly; not to anyone specific. Suddenly, someone magically answered.
"Sylvia!" - all three of us
"I'm right here!" - a girl
(we turn to each other o_O!)
"Let's go" - Kay
(Alice and I start walking over to where the girl was; hesitated a little cause the girl's boyfriend came over)
"Go ask her" - Kay
(Alice walks over to them)
"I'm sorry but this might sound random, but is your name Sylvia?" - Alice
"No my name isn't Sylvia" - the girl
It was crazy! Her boyfriend called her around the same time we called out "Sylvia." How funny.
God is a humorous God, Amen. That's right.
p.s. I'm trying to not say that anything is a coincidence cause it's not.
pp.s. Look on Alice's blog for more information on this.
jasy
Monday, September 8, 2008
oman
a lot of us are getting attacked, but we shall stay strong and have faith!
oh& congrats anniewanglee! lol
oh& congrats anniewanglee! lol
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
yay
Alice is doing this with me. Of course for her own reasons. I've become aware of some things. I realized that my mom is worried about me not getting the right amount of nutrients so she keeps making me tuna fish sandwiches in the morning before going to work. I really appreciate what she's doing and I will repay her by eating it. Which means, I'm adding tuna to my list of things I will eat. Already prayed to God. I don't think my dad understands some of the meanings behind veggies. There's this soup that he says has veggies in it, but he thinks that I should eat that ALL THE TIME. "What else are you gonna eat?" No. There are other kinds of dishes I can eat with veggies, dad. ha. Anyway, that's my normal update, I guess.
Jasmine
Jasmine
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