Past 03 Days

January 25th:
Jill Austin was the first person I got to hear when I went to the Prophetic House of Prayer Conference on Friday. She talked about the "unusual combinations" because it's not just about the youngsters, it's also about the elders too! My own thought at that moment was that the celebrities should listen to Jill talk with all their problems and that they need God. Amen? She asked us, "Can you fly? Can you fly like Peter Pan?" Jill was cute. She responded to that question with a, "No. I'm going for it. Catch me if you can!" Her real message was "impartation." She made me think when she asked us this question, "Do you have something to die for?" In the middle, I got inspired. It's one of those half inspirations I sometimes get during conferences. Poem: This hunger, moves me from the inside/ It calls out to the one thing most important/ God, You shine like the bright morning sun/ And You're beautiful as the evening sunset/ This passion is calling to You./ Jesus, You're essentials in our lives./ Pour down on us the burning fire of Your heart/ We'll never stop loving You/ Your scent flows through the atmosphere/ It fills the air everywhere You go/ And I must say/ You smell is beautiful. Jill also reminded us of the two men that loved God the most; Moses and David. This really made me remember what Jack said last week about David and Moses (and today as well). Oh yeah. Sarah and I went near the stage when Jill asked us to do so, at least for the Asians. As she kept talking and praying, we kept praying to God. Suddenly I had this overwhelming feeling and I started crying so hard. Sarah was right next to me and she was crying so hard too. I just felt this pain. It was astonishing. I cried so much and nearly screamed loudly. NEARLY. I screamed, but not LOUD. There were people who did though. It was something you really had to see.

January 26th: Che Anh was the first person to speak after worship. He talked about the things we should pray for; such things as same sex marriages, abortion, SB777, and for our nation to get revival. There was something he said that caught my heart, even though it didn't really apply to me. He said, "Don't be sad that you're the first to save your family, start the chain." Amen, right?! Oh man, come on! Afterwards, was Che's son, Gabe. I would have to say that Gabe was the most inspiring I've ever heard before. What he did was so touching, it made me cry so much as I watched him. Gabe said, "It's not what you get at these conferences, it's what you do with it afterwards." That is so true. However, I didn't hear this at other conferences and I'm certain that Johnny will agree with me that this conference was different. It was a good difference. Gabe said that in his life, he was convicted because he didn't actually pray for revival for the nations right away. (hahaha! I messed up in my notebook so I had to see what I actually meant, my bad). Gabe mentioned about how revival comes with sacriface and it's true. "What are you willing to give up to see this nation get revival?" - Gabe. You must sacriface to see something happen. Something that's very important to you, would you be able to give it up for this nation to come to God? Oh man. That just shook my spirit so badly. I was crying. Gabe said something that made me think hard. Since you all know that my parents and I dont get along so easily and it felt like Gabe was pointing this out to me and the people at the conference that had the same type of issue. He said, "We need the elderly. We want to honor you." What Gabe did after saying that was the most touching thing I've ever seen at a conference or in my life. He asked the elderly speakers to come to the stage (including his father) and the younger speakers washed their feet. Alice, Sarah, Tiffa, and I were sitting there like "Oh my gosh!! *cries* Oh my gosh!!" or at least that's what I was doing. Gabe declared this, "By washing our parents' feet, we are going against abortion and saying to our parents, 'we honor you'."

We want God to ruin us. Did you know that God weeps for every baby that got aborted? He does. Gabe us Luke 15:11-32. It's a story we've heard a million times, I'm sure of it. It was about the son who sinned, came back, and his father welcomed his son back instead of yelling at him. I'm sure Jack has talked about this a lot of things too. YES YOU DO, JACK. I REMEMBER! God always sees us before our sins. There are two sons, the rebellious and the perfect son. The question is, "which one are you?" People would think that this story is about the sons, but it's really about the father. God, our father, is always going after you no matter if you're looking for him or not. The father in the story said to his perfect son, "Everything I have is yours, whenever you want it." That line was so meant to make people cry. I'm serious. It just catches your heart. We have to know our identities. We have the sons and daughters of God, Amen? Gabe had three points. 1. When we realize that God is our father and that we are his sons and daughters, the things we're going through aren't even difficult. 2. Receive His love. The thing is that God loved us first and that's why we love Him. Gabe told us about this one time his father bought him air jordans and he was so excited and happy and thankful that he never took it off. (Was funnier if you were there) Basically, when you receive His love, "PUT IT ON!" (joke). 3. Return. To swift & change. You can't actually repent until you know God's love for you. This reminded me of my resolution picture (2008). Then they showed a movie clip from Blood Diamond when the father finds his son and reminds him of who he really is. It was so touching, I KNOW for sure everyone in the auditorium was crying, ok? lol It was that touching. God and only God can define who we are.

Next up is Banning. Boy oh boy, was I excited to hear that Banning was talking at the conference that day. Tiffa and I wanted to go "YEA BANNING!" but couldn't. Pretty discouraging, but that's ok! Banning started off with 1 Samuel 14:8. It talked about Elijah and Elisha (however you spell the name). Then I remembered Jack talking about them. "The revival causes the prayer meetings" and children are the natural big dreamers. Then he gave us an example with his little daughter. It was funny and simple so that we could understand. The thing is, between childhood and being adults, we transgress into something called "reality." However though, God doesn't live in reality, Amen?? He is not intimidated by the fact that something hasn't been done before. Banning brought up the issue of how some churches don't even allow themselves to dream. That's a big no no. lol You don't have to live in reality. The next thing he said is my favorite line cause now I always use it, haha. He said, "If you want to change the world, you got to be a bit crazy, right?" He said that all the people who've changed the world, were a least bit crazy. None were not crazy, to say the least. Did that make sense? I dunno. This brings to something else, "Do something!" How could God use me to change the world? is another great question that was asked. He said something like that, "Ministry of encouragement was created along side the dreamers." Then he gave us Deuteronomy 3:28, 31:7. He said so many inspiring words. He said, "Be the one to put courage in others!" because that's what he wants to do.

He talked about Johnathan and how he encouraged David in his time of panic. We need courage! Amen! Then he also gave us Judges 20:20-22. You have to know how to reform your battle line when you face discouragement. That the fear of failure is to kill dreamers. Jesus is the hope! That's why you should dream big dreams! It was really funny when Banning said, "We're not that big. God is bigger and whatever our decisions are, it's not going to change (alter) His plan for us" Amen?? Banning then told us a story about a guy who was on a conference call with a lady who had a very bad back pain. He kept debating whether or not he should pray for her because he was afraid of getting fired because of it. In the end he decided to pray for her. There was awkwardness when he asked but she said ok. Afterwards, he asked her if she felt anything and there was this awkward giggling behind the phonelines. Uh oh right? Then the lady said that she feels way better! The next day she walked into the doctor's office and said she felt better than ever and they checked her and in the end, they cancelled her surgery. HALLELUJAH!!!! PRAISE GOD!

Then Sharah Pradhan spoke. She started with a very tearful prayer. It was powerful and touching, literally. When she was praying, kneeling down before God, I had this thought. I thought, "I think that I would cry if I ever see God face to face." She talked about the giant killers and it reminded me of what Jack talked about. She prophesized over Che, Gabe, Lou, Jesse, and Janet. Janet was shaking violently on the floor. It was awesomely crazy. She also talked about how we should go into the enemy's camp and take back what is ours along with things that Jack has been saying (1 Samuel 30:6-18). The year of 2008, we should go into the enemy's camp and take back what is ours! David. When he was in trouble, he went to God but when he did that, it wasn't about him, it was all about God's heart. That was something that was so admirable about David. God wants to give you everything. Remember that. It really isn't about your ability to do things, it's about His desire to have you do it.

Many people fear a lot of things for themselves after they die. For us, the biggest fear (should be) that when we finally reach Heaven, we'd have regrets. She then told us a story about a man who got to Heaven and God showed him all the things he's done and then showed him the things that God wanted him to do. It was like a burn, ya know? lol Then the last speaker of the day was Kris Vallotton. The first verse he gave us was Acts 10:3-4. He told us about when he and his wife had financial problems. They wanted to give 1,000 out to this one place, when they got home, they received 15,000 dollars. After, maybe a few days, his wife felt like they should donate another 1,000 to an orphanage I believe. When they got back one day, they received another 15,000 dollars. 30,000 dollars in only a few weeks or so. Whatever he said. haha. He also made a very true point. Would you give something to God that cost you nothing? I'd have to say of course not! He mentioned, "religion is the most evil thing on earth because it brings war." I think I'd have to agree with him on this. "Truth wasn't meant to be showed, it was meant to be experience" something else that is true. Kris is such a varied speaker. The things he says, we can relate to it so easily.

I want to walk across the river of jordan (John 5:1-7, Ezekiel 47:1-12, Daniel 7, Romans 12). The thing about Kris though is that he talks so fast, sometimes you can barely hear what he says. Sad huh? After Kris spoke, his students prophesized over people they saw things in their lives. If we wanted to get prophesized for, we could go downstairs. So Monay and I went and we got prophesized for. The lady said that was I born to be a leader like many have told me before. She also said that I was going to lay things down and establish them for people, to people. Or at least that's what I think she said. I have short (bad) term memory. V______V I usually don't remember things unless they said it in details. So basically vague things don't stick well. And during this conference, Monay and I finally got to see our old friend Kevin and Zach. That night, right before I slept, I got this vision of Kevin. He was playing baseball and when he hit the ball, it went FARRRR. I felt that God was telling me that Kevin will go far to reach God and for God. Also, I saw Kevin leading people, preaching to them about the Father. It will be so impacting. Also, I met a new friend by the name of Angela. We barely talked much during the whole time we sat next to each other, but it was like we were already buddies. Darnit. I should have asked her for her number. We were kind of in a rush. Darn. It's ok. I pray that we'll see each other again! ^___^

January 27th:Today's service. Wow. Seemed so short compared to the notes I took two days before. Well. Before, we have our prayer room time, right? I asked God to show me something. He gave me 1 Chronicles 14 & 1 Corinthians 14 & 15. First Chronicles 14 talks about when David defeated the Philiphians. It just reminded be of Banning's message: to dream big and to not be afraid of being viewed as crazy. As for first Corinthians 14 &15 talks about the gifts of prophecy and tongues, orderly worship, and the resurrection of Christ. Monay got to receive her tongues last night. It was awesome! Thank you Lord! This also reminded me of the messages from the speakers as well. Orderly worship. I didn't know that Jack was going to talk about worship today too. So I just realized that now. haha. During worship I felt like God was taking my hands and was standing right inf ront of me. I felt His love throughout the room, surrounding everyone who WANT it wholeheartedly.

Jack's message. Short, but helpful. (Exodus 19:5-6) At mount sinai. 1. Treasured possession - God paid the price, layed down His only son and signs of wonders for us. He is a jealous God. 2. Kingdon of Priest - our identity. 3. Praise and Worship (Exodus 20:18-21) - Most people want to exchange religion and relationship. God wants relationship over religion. Amen? (John 4:11) God isn't looking for worship, He's looking for worshippers. Where are the worshippers?

"Shut up, Emo!" - Jack
Can Jack be any more Jack? :)
Sorry for the long post!


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Let it Hail

Amazing how last night or should I say this early morning around four something, it was hailing like crazyyyyyyy. It's going to rain this whole entire week or has been ya know? And then suddenly, hail came falling down and came down hard! Is this a sign? I didn't hear anything about it hailing, just rain.

Let it rain, let it rain,
open the floodgates of Heaven!
Let it rain!


Yes, Jesus. Let it rain. Pour down Your mercy unto us, pour down Your mercy and love! We will stand strong and ready to fight when You come back. We'll fight and not give up! Your love and blessings will prevail all else! We'll cry out Your name, Jesus! Jesus! We love You, Lord! We want more of You! Put in our hearts the itch to yearn for You MORE Lord Jesus! "I want to yearn for You" Jesus, "I want to burn with passion for You and only You" Yes, Jesus. The fire inside of us, make it flame higher to the clouds! We're reaching out to You, crying to You. You always hear our calls, Lord. We Thank You. In Jesus' name, Amen.


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Nails & Abingdon

You might be wondering "what is 'abingdon'?" desho? The full name of it is "Abingdon Boys School" in Japan. There's a band called that & they rock. They're kind of weird the first time you watch their mvs such as innocent sorrow & nephilim, but afterwards, you start to listen to their beat & lyrics & it just sounds so much better than the actual mv; how they sing. They are wow. So basically my mom just did my nails for me "purple" & so I'm sitting here listening to some Abingdon and trying not to scratch my nail polish off. What a fun day. At least half of it was. ^_^





I have homework. BLECH.

Sugoi (Amazing)

I won't be posting this in japanese like someONE suggested that I do. I have a story to tell.



Ok. So this morning, I asked God to perform a miracle of some sort or anything today. Either for me or for someone else. I proclaimed that He would. So as I went to school and met up with a friend named April, I realized that she had an interview today around 5:30pm. When she told my other friend and me that it was at Vector's, my other friend said that it wasn't a good place to work for. So our friend was trying to reach someone else because that person is the assistant manager at that place and her really good friend. Soon after, April and I had to go to class and our friend said that she'd text April if her friend responded. April sat in class waiting and waiting for the text msg but it never came. At the end, she decided to call that place & asked to cancel the interview. (Other people also said that Vector's wasn't a good place to work at either). Right after she hung up, a guy came by & gave us a flyer for places that are hiring if you wanted a job. I was like "Oh my gosh! Look! You can go to this! This is so God!" It was a sign from God, trying to tell April that there are other places nearby that are hiring. He knows what our hearts want. He heard April's heart and answered her desire. It was amazing! ^_^


p.s. Pray for Diane Banes. Pray that God will heal her and she won't even need a new liver. Pray that her original liver and the things that are attacking it will be ceased. Pray that she'll get healthier and that her twin sister will not get any illnesses. They said that they're afraid for her twin sister too. I can understand why. It's the whole twin thing and family trait thing.

Resolution Picture

I got this a little while ago. I knew right when I received this picture what it meant to me. It was a box, like a small treasure box, with a clear redish glass in the middle on the top, where you'd usually open it. This box was wrapped with chains, rusty chains. The box was rusty itself but the glass looked as if it was newly placed onto the box. There was no key and from time to time, you can hear a beating sound inside of it. It was a heart. The heart was locked up in the box. The message to me was that however hard I try to set it free, it won't be able to. It's like a punishment for me. This might seem like a bad thing, but to be honest with you, it isn't. This box represents God. In a good way. He's going to block all of the distractions from me this year. I know it. He won't let any unnecessary things get in my way. I proclaimed that I will grow to yearn Him more, to focus only on Him this year. The chains represents His protection, His wings, His blood. The box and chains are rusty, because it'll take some time for God and me to clean my life up.

I looked at this message and smiled with tears in my eyes. "uruwashii" I said.

Tears "Namida". It's something else I wanted to talk about. My tears are warm. What does that mean, really? Does it mean I have love in my heart to shed such warm tears? I mean... I understand that perhaps everyone's tears are warm, but sometimes the tears can be filled with hatred. When have you ever cried because you loved something so much? Whether or not you had it in your posession? When I think about the people with illnesses, it makes me cry. Not because I feel bad for them or anything, chigau. It's because I love how they're still living their lives for "right now -- ima wa." Even though they can't go back to their past, either bad or good, they still want to live their lives as best as they can. I'm just saying in general. Of course, there could be ones who aren't like the ones I'm talking about, but it's their decision. All everyone has to do is pray for them and love them like you use to. I think that's the best gift you can give them. Your love, support, and time. Love "ai" that's pure "junsei," not fake "gansaku." Support "joryoku" that even encourages yourself "jibun ni hagemashiteiru." Soshite "and" spending some time "toki" with the person "hito" you care about.

My own view, especially after watching "Ichi Rittoru No Namida" -- One Liter of Tears. This movie talks a lot about human beings "ningen." It gets you thinking, ya know? I really admire people who can face their burdens with a smile"hohoemi." It's hard to do that.

You're probably wondering, "doushite kokoni nihongo?" Well.. Ichi Rittoru No Namida no tame ni "for One Liter of Tears' sake" I'm trying to learn the language. Plus, the movie is japanese so duh! I love the language, people!! x___x

Let's cry together, ok? -- "isshoni nakimashou ne?" -- ♥ Jasmine

Taihen!

I have a my first quiz tomorrow. I know that it doesn't seem like it's a big deal, but it is. Remember when I said that I'm not very good when it comes to math & science? (If I never told you, now you know.) Well.. we're required to use a scientific calculator. Obviously, right? I didn't need to say that, but whatevers. Anyways. I searched this morning for it, in my room. The last time I checked, it was in my room. At school, however, I called Kalong just to see if she still had it for some reason, but it turned out that she didn't have it. I was kind of discouraged, but not entirely. I was kind of in a hurry for school so I decided that I'd continue after I get home.

So when I got home, I decided to take my mind off of the scorching pain I had in my TWO arms because of the shots I got today by watching a funny movie. Afterwards, I thought to myself, "I can't hide from chemistry forever," so I decided to look for my calculator. I searched my room & even outside a little for a whole 20 minutes. As I was about to give up, or gave up, I helplessly bent down to turn on my table lights so I can see my worksheet better. When I looked away to yawn, I saw my name. I recognized it because it's the only thing that was on my calculator. I instantly knew it was my calculator. It was a miracle. The first thing that came out of my mouth was, "Oh Thank God! Thank You Jesus!" I even hugged my calculator. It was a weird moment.

Before I searched for it, I prayed like three times for me to find it. For it to be right in front of my eyes. At the end of my search, it was right in front of my eyes. It was funny 'cause I looked around that area already & I didn't see anything before AND my calculator was hidden! AMAZING RIGHT!? Praise God!


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My Protector

Ok. So today, I decided to drive to church by myself. I did so while praying continously during the ride to church. I was so afraid. When I was at home, I looked in the mirror & told myself that this was an opportunity to get out of my comfort zone. So I said to myself, "Ok! I am going to do this! I can do it! It's simple! If Johnny can be so carefree about it, I can be too! Yes! GOD IS ON MY SIDE! AMEN!" Afterwards, I walked out & told my dad that I was going. When I looked outside, he started saying stuff of how I can get home easily because I'm very nerved when I think about U-turns and when you have to wait for cars when you're turn left. (Yes, that one light on Rosemead)

So I kept praying while driving to church. You have nooooo idea how scared I was. But I kept praying, knowing that he WILL protect me! So. I got there in one piece. It was funny cause my dad actually called & asked me if I am there already. He's so awesome. xD I wanted to laugh when he called, but I kept it in until after I hung up with him. It took me three tries to get a decent parking alignment. (so sad) Anyways, when I got to church, I was soooo nervous about something. I realized I was nervous about driving back home. I never practiced going out from church before so I was extremely wrecked. Annie told me to proclaim God's name. So.. during the prayer room, I was praying to God, proclaiming His name & asking Him to bless me & protect me along the way back.

So. After service. I remembered that Alice and I had to work on the calendar. I looked at the clock & saw that it was around 4pm. I decided, instead of staying at church until dark time, why not just go to my house & work on it. So. I asked Alice about it & she asked Sarah. Sarah took a very long time to respond to us, but that's ok. In the end, we decided to go to my house, with me driving her and Monay. Before we left, we were talking to Tiffa about things. We decided to all pray for her and such. God, bless her.

We got in the car, right? I started the car & everything. Then suddenly, Amy got into the car. I was shocked. I thought to myself, (literally) "Oh crap! Now there's gonna be three people!" x_X So I got even more hestitant to driving them to my house. So I thought, let's pray! I turned around & asked Alice to start praying before we go. So we took around 3 minutes to pray and then we were off! It went smoothly! THANK YOU GOD! It was seriously a miracle in a way. To me at least xD

He is my Protector! :) ♥

M I K A S A ♥

Pray for:

- Robert Carlos Paz
- Mark Mikasa
- Lucas Mikasa


Even though RCP was the one who did the hit n run, please pray to God to forgive him. Show him how forgiving God is. Pray for his family whose probably worried sick.

Pray for Mark (my teacher) & the only son left (from twins: Nathan & Lucas) Lucas that their injuries WILL heal BY GOD'S HAND!

Not even Hoangthy's sillyness can make me laugh at a time like this. Pray for healing and blessings. Wife Mille Mikasa and twin son Nathan are... with God now. Mark's family are Christians. Read this:

http://www.dailybreeze.com/ci_7867900


Lord Jesus Christ, I pray for RCP right now. I pray that you forgive his crime Lord. I just pray that you show him how forgiving you are all the time Lord. I pray that you just bless him with all Your love. Show him a revelation. He probably didn't mean to do this, even though it has been done. Forgive, even if people will never forget. I pray for his family who are probably worried about him and the Mikasa family. I pray that you just continue to bless his family. I also pray for Mark Lord, my teacher, my friend, and my fellow believer and his son Lucas Lord. I pray that you heal their injuries right now Lord! Send down Your Angels, Your Strength, Your blessings onto them. Cover them with Your blood, Jesus Christ. Only You can heal them! They are Your sons, Lord. Protect them, like You promise to. Bless their lives Lord.

IN JESUS NAME, IN JESUS NAME, I COMMAND THE INJURIES TO FADE AWAY! BY GOD'S HAND, BE GONE! LORD, LET MARK AND LUCAS BE A TESTIMONY FOR ALL TIME. Amen.


Millie & Nathan Mikasa R.I.P. 010108

L I M E & M A N G O ♥

I have to admit that Lime Diet Coke is good. Though I hate the fact that it's diet coke, it's pretty good. x) & so is mango boba. xD Never really noticed it until today. ^_^



Anyways, Toki is back here with me, starting on "Twilight." And I really need to point something out to people. It bugs me a lot.


1. Don't. Text. Me. Repeatedly. AND. AT. ALL. Honestly. I know we're in the era of texting and all, but please respect my wants too. From now on, if you text me about something that's can easily be done with a simple phone call, I hope you choose the phone call or else I won't even dare look at your text. I can read the first four words of the textes and if I think that it's something you can just easily call me and ask, then I won't even open it and I'll just delete it. If you think I'm joking around, go ahead & try it. See if I'll remember by the time we see each other. You might think this is harsh, but trust me, with my dad's impairing tone of voice in my ear at the end of each month about the text messaging stuff he had already told me NOT to do, you'd probably would say this just the same if you were me. I told everyone already NOT to text me unless you REALLY can't reach me on my cellphone. So please. Listen to me and take this seriously. 10 cents per message might not seem a lot to you, but when you have TONS of messages coming your way ESP when you never signed up for text messaging, it'll cost you A LOT. If you don't believe me, don't. I don't expect a lot of people to believe me because no one trusts anyone in this lifetime anymore. You're all stubborn, not saying that I'm not, but it's true. Admit it. People irritate me. Ugh.

2. And the second one is about me being serious. You really have to see when I'm being honestly serious and when I'm being the goof that I am. And trust me, I know it's hard for you to know which is which when it comes to me, but if you actually observe me, I think I'm pretty easy to figure out at times. If I say I'm being serious, even if I'm laughing, you need to take that into consideration and believe my words. It won't be my fault in the future if all of a sudden, I go ballistic on everyone around me, when I feel like the frustration people give me is getting out of hand. I warned you. This is a warning and heed it please. Also, when I'm being funny, and you'll know when I'm being funny, you can either laugh or whatever. It doesn't matter to me much, but know the difference between my behaviors please. Oh, and I do need to inform you that I do sometimes combine my being serious and my being a goof sometimes. Like when I confrontly talk about some issues such as, I don't know, someone in a class of mine or in general kids, I can make you laugh, but at the same time, I also mean it. So be aware. If you can't do that, then I'm sorry.


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