I'm Legit Now

Today I turned 18 years old and I don't feel any different than I was the day before. All I got out of this day was hanging out with my cousin Uyen, the best friend Darin, and with half of the cell girls. Other than that, I noticed just now that for the entire day, I was really thirsty. I don't think it was because of the heat but because of how much I talked today. Tiring, especially on the one day I wanted to relax on. I got to admit, hanging out with Darin, especially after Uyen left was one of the best times he and I ever had together because it was just "us," Darin and Jasmine. I am actually looking forward to having alone time with him some more in the future.. maybe. The thing that struck me the most was that when my dad asked me who that guy was that picked me up, he didn't really get angry. He just wanted to know who Darin really was. I even promised my father that the next time I go hang with Darin, I'd properly introduce them since Darin is the ultimate best friend and that my dad has never met him because I couldn't really be close with any guys at that time. Yes. I have a good reason, I just didn't say it. Ha. How typical of me, right? So anyway, hanging out with the best friend (Darin) and the cell girls was a lot of fun. There is one other thing that I surprised me other than the promise to my father thing was that I told Darin about how I felt.. everything. This is hard to admit to everyone here, but if I was in a middle of a risk, like if I were to make a choice between whether I live and Darin dies, or if I die to let him live, I'd choose to die to let him live. Please. I don't want to hear, "You can't say that." It's something I've been actually thinking these past few years and it's something I would be willing to do if that ever happened. I don't think a lot of people would do that for their best friend. It's like that one saying where it says that what you choose in life, you have to choose wisely. Maybe dying for my best friend isn't wise, but it's something I am willing to risk. To be honest, all the years I've known him, I couldn't really do anything for him and yet he helped me so much. He was always there for me and I was always there for him when he needed it. The one thing I wasn't supporting him with is his current relationship. It bothers me because he supports me in EVERYTHING and I can't even support him in this relationship. I don't think a lot of you would understand this feeling, but if any of you truly do, I think that realizing this on your 18th birthday could be a good changing point in your views towards everything you thought was simple.


Thank you everyone who wished me a happy birthday.
Most of all, thank you Darin for driving an hour to San Gabriel in the heat just to see me.
I heart you lots best friend.